I’m never gonna die

You get drunk

and then you write as you would write for your salvation

trying to absolve yourself from sins you still commit

the mother’s old

the children died

and no one knows your name

the dad still beats his way around

and cops are never far

I feel an urge to be myself

and yet I can’t

for if they knew

just what I am

they would attone

for all the sins

I’m just a boy

I follow rules

I work a job

I wait for pay

I wanted more

I asked the rest

I went too far

for nothing

I died for ages

just to live

a life untrue

way past yourself

and if I do this long enough

I’m never gonna die